I am having trouble relaxing these days.
Even while on vacation recently, I just couldn’t let go during the day and I wasn’t sleeping well at night.
In fact, I woke up every morning between 2:30 and 4:30. (It didn’t help that our windows overlooked the pool – which was fully lit throughout the night.)
My work schedule these days is extremely flexible – for which I am thankful – but my days are choppy and there’s no daily “quittin’ time”. No finish line.
Not to mention the fact I am left setting my own schedule hour by hour, which requires a boatload of second guessing for an overthinker like me.
Add the doctorate work on top and I’m left alternating between jittery and paralyzed from morning to bedtime.
And when I do take time to relax – like sitting down to watch something on Netflix with Melissa – it is the same sensation as sneaking junk food while on a diet: It fulfills a craving, but guilt overshadows much of the enjoyment.
I know I am not the first one to struggle with this – anybody have a book or article to suggest?
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